recently, i have been asking God for a vision... i still am.... to a certain extend, i am unsure about the future and what i should do about it... the basic fundamental stuffs that i SHOULD do, i noe... but other than this, i am a bit blur...
something that pastor jeff spoke to me about when i was at kallang theatre struck me... he said, "ellson, what do you think of starting your own company? a decor or props company?"
hmm... my own company... this means i can have lots of fexible time to serve God... i can bless the church with bigger and better decor and props.... most impt of all, i can use my gifts to the fullest.... still contemplating about it... but it is something worth thinking...
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
carolling 2006
last minute christmas carol rehearsal....
with a smiley soooooo big.... how can you dun smile!!!
carolling @ marina square...
carolling @ raffles city shopping centre
3 men... 3 sparkling juices...
machos of NUS....
some Christmas Decor Pic
that's one gigantic door... guess wat this is!!! a lift... never use such a big lift before... 
the giraffe legs... the actors are suppose to walk on stilts... *heng* the idea was thrown away...
ellson and his giraffe
this is a very dangerous act... kids do not try this at home.... SHU SHU YOU LIAN GUO
ma chiam like rein deers....
zebra crossings....
Monday, December 18, 2006
life's a play...
can anyone rem this song? it goes "ren sheng ru meng, meng ............." haha... sorry i cant rem anything much more than this... but i believed it is by eric moo....
was reading a blog entry by liyan... it about was joshua harris's view that life is a play and God being the playwright... suddenly something struck me...
God is the playwright and we are the artistes, then....
^Jesus is the artiste nanny*
^Holy Spirit is the director
*artiste nanny is the one who fuss over us... checking our schedules.... making sure that our look their best.... the one who will stand by us no matter what....
unlike normal play.... we do not know the full story of the play... all we know is that it will be a WAN MEI DE JIE JUE.... due to our human limitation, we are unable to comprehend the full story at the moment.... we cannot "memorise" all the lines.... therefore, we will only know the current scene we are acting... this sense of uncertainity will of course pressurise us....
many will complain and say, "wa lau... how to act when i dun know the full story... i need to get into the mood to act..."
but the truth is... if we REALLY know everything... i think we will be too brothered by the sequence of happenings... the weight of memorising the whole script... worse still, we try to tell the playwright how to move from one scene to another.... then to act to the best of our abilities...
thus.... why not just believe in the playwright... this playwright is award-winning and has a track record of being the best.... if YOU do not believe... feel free to read his biography...
and now, on 1/8/2010...
i am reading that book which speaks of "a cast in rebellion"
interesting
a bit late, but interesting
Sunday, December 17, 2006
sisters from HOPE KS
thank God for the opportunity to meet up with Hope Christian from all over the world... i had the chance to meet up with:
^a group of Thai Bro and Sisters [only rem tony... haha.. am sure our NUS sisters can rem him as well... haha... am gald that we are still in contact...]
^a German Bro [Oops... cant rem his name...]
^a south african couple [Hendry and Lalendra*]
^a group of sisters from Hope KS [valerie, joyce, hui lee and huiling]
^valerie is the leader of the pack... young but serious about God
^joyce is the talented gal! can dance ballet, can play keyboard...
^hui lee is the aspiring church planter!
^huiling is the youngest but the most energetic... brought lots of laughter and joy through her child likeness
lunch @ kiliney
ellson, joyce, huili, huiling, valerie, liyan
pic @ orchard point
am always encouraged by the passion and the heart of them... on the last night that i met up with them, i spoke to hui lee... woah... she told me she is going to all the different service at nexus... saying that she wanna learn as much as possible... she is like a sponge... soaking up everything to make sure that her trip to singapore is as fruitful as possible.... really admire her spirit...
then it dawn upon me... if the PAP is so keen to make singapore an education hub for the world... we too can make Hope singapore a mission hub... a "recharging" hub... a rescource hub for the rest of the Hope counterparts.... pastor Ben always says that Hope has a church in singapore not by chance but by the power of God and that God have a purpose for all of us here... hmm... frankly speaking... at this moment in time, i do not know what to do about it... as in... wat is the next step... but i pray that God will annoint our leaders to bring us forward... towards the destiny that God has for us....
^a group of Thai Bro and Sisters [only rem tony... haha.. am sure our NUS sisters can rem him as well... haha... am gald that we are still in contact...]
^a German Bro [Oops... cant rem his name...]
^a south african couple [Hendry and Lalendra*]
^a group of sisters from Hope KS [valerie, joyce, hui lee and huiling]
^valerie is the leader of the pack... young but serious about God
^joyce is the talented gal! can dance ballet, can play keyboard...
^hui lee is the aspiring church planter!
^huiling is the youngest but the most energetic... brought lots of laughter and joy through her child likeness
lunch @ kiliney
ellson, joyce, huili, huiling, valerie, liyan
pic @ orchard point
am always encouraged by the passion and the heart of them... on the last night that i met up with them, i spoke to hui lee... woah... she told me she is going to all the different service at nexus... saying that she wanna learn as much as possible... she is like a sponge... soaking up everything to make sure that her trip to singapore is as fruitful as possible.... really admire her spirit...
then it dawn upon me... if the PAP is so keen to make singapore an education hub for the world... we too can make Hope singapore a mission hub... a "recharging" hub... a rescource hub for the rest of the Hope counterparts.... pastor Ben always says that Hope has a church in singapore not by chance but by the power of God and that God have a purpose for all of us here... hmm... frankly speaking... at this moment in time, i do not know what to do about it... as in... wat is the next step... but i pray that God will annoint our leaders to bring us forward... towards the destiny that God has for us....
Thursday, December 07, 2006
a few days after stand chart marathon...
Praise You Lord!!! for you sustain me... just very happy that i ran faster than i had expected!!! though not very fast in the eyes of pro runners... like that Amos guy... but i met and exceeded my target timing...
i saw my pic online.. woah! there are actually ppl who wanna take picture of me... maybe they just know that i am a sucker and i will surely buy photos of myself finishing the marathon... as a matter of fact, i did... to inspire myself to run next year!!!
i saw my pic online.. woah! there are actually ppl who wanna take picture of me... maybe they just know that i am a sucker and i will surely buy photos of myself finishing the marathon... as a matter of fact, i did... to inspire myself to run next year!!!
hey ppl!!! in case you din read the news, Hope Singapore came in 7th!!! woah X woah!!! last year we were 10th! thank God for all the runners... and thank God for sustaining all of us!!! let's improve the ranking and so that everyone will know that christians can run! haha... hmm... come to think about it.. got ppl say we cannot run meh? anyway... just wanna make a name for the church... bring glory to the church we all love sooooooo much!!! 
i am running next year... are you?
Monday, December 04, 2006
it is done...
"hey... who wanna join stand chart marathon? the 42km? we have to hurry to and sign up... before the early bird closes... "
"me... me... me... i wan to join 42km marathon..." as i keyed in the debit card number, i knew that if i want to finish the run with grace and dignity, i really need to train...
and trained hard i did.... as least for the first few weeks... i was very onz... i made myself a calender and a training schedule... about how much distance to cover per week and stuff... looked at website on running... bought myself a GT2110
then haze came... sigh... it turn the HQ into Genting... so foggy... haha.... it was actually quite romantic.... except for the smell... boy... was real irritated with it because i cant continue with my training... but it soon became convenient excuses.... anyway... the monsoon session took over and clear the sky of smog but filled it with rain.... again.. convenient excuses to skip training...
as days pass... i edited the countdown on my msn nickname... fear begins rises.... i had only cleared 19km during my so-called training... it is not even 50% of the marathon distance.... to make myself feel better, i said to myself... "at most walk lor... never mind what... can complete oredi an accomplishment" this thought actually calms me down! [it was a thought of defeat... a thought of giving up... bad thought!]
then came 2nd of Dec... the night where myself and Jan spent the night at zhengzhong's place before BIG day... ate lots of banana... drank lots of milk before sleeping... must be filled with carbo so that i will have energy to run... it feels kinda weird to sleep at 1230am... [for i have been sleeping at 4am lately] thank God that both Jan ZZ dun snore... haha... if not... how to sleep! haha...
at 4am... Jan's phone alarm rang... i opened my eyes... but i did not move a muscle... then i heard Jan turning off the alarm... silence... was expecting Jan to wake us up... silence... nothing happens... only the soft rumbling of vehicles in the distance.... i close my eyes.... expecting Jan to wake us a while later... maybe he just wan to snooze a little more...
420am... i woke up... the 2 are still sleeping... one of the biggest temptation revealed itself.... i want to give up... i just want to sleep in and then give the excuse that we over slept... it is not because of sleep... it is due to the fact that i know what is to come if i run the marathon... i can imagine all the pain... all the agony... the sweat.... the blistering sun.... the sheer torture.... i dun need to do that, do i? i am not obliged to run, am i? no one can force me to do so, can they?
i closed my eyes once again... suddenly... the story of Jesus praying in Gethesame came into my mind... Jesus being God... knows what is to come if He allows Himself to be captured.... i am sure He knows the physical pain... the insulting words from ppl... most impt of all... He knew that for a brief moment.... His Father will remove His Presence on Him... that perhaps is the greatest pain of all... but He remembered His purpose on earth... Jesus had volunteered Himself to save us... and i believe that had helped brought Jesus through... His sacrifice IS for the ones He loves...
i too remembered why i want to join the marathon... it is not the race that i am interested in... it is something that i want to do... i had lost the feeling of working hard for something... that persistence.. that determination... that spirit of wanting to complete something despite of hardship.... i had lost this feeling... i want to get it back... thus i prayed that through this physical breathrough... i too can have various breakthroughs in my life as well....
i am glad God reminded me of the story of Jesus's struggle as well... makes me feel at peace... that my God knows what i am going through and He had oredi set the example... :) anyway... if i dun wake jan and zz up... they will kill me as well! haha... most impt of all... i can never hold up my head if i were to give up...
oh oh... it was a spiritual breathrough because i prayed for 8km... haha.. at the 34km mark.. they actually ran out of DEEP HEAT! what is this man?!? no DEEP HEAT means that i had to endure the stinging pain in my right knee cap! how to complete marathon if every step i take is going to hurting like mad! but God somehow remove the pain.. and i was able to run and complete it... this dependence on God for comfort is in the physical sense.. but i know that spiritually and emotionally, God can provide the same as well!!!
thank God for the breakthrough... and i pray and commit my aching knee to the Lord... heal me and heal all those who suffered "marathonic" ailment. amen!
"me... me... me... i wan to join 42km marathon..." as i keyed in the debit card number, i knew that if i want to finish the run with grace and dignity, i really need to train...
and trained hard i did.... as least for the first few weeks... i was very onz... i made myself a calender and a training schedule... about how much distance to cover per week and stuff... looked at website on running... bought myself a GT2110
then haze came... sigh... it turn the HQ into Genting... so foggy... haha.... it was actually quite romantic.... except for the smell... boy... was real irritated with it because i cant continue with my training... but it soon became convenient excuses.... anyway... the monsoon session took over and clear the sky of smog but filled it with rain.... again.. convenient excuses to skip training...
as days pass... i edited the countdown on my msn nickname... fear begins rises.... i had only cleared 19km during my so-called training... it is not even 50% of the marathon distance.... to make myself feel better, i said to myself... "at most walk lor... never mind what... can complete oredi an accomplishment" this thought actually calms me down! [it was a thought of defeat... a thought of giving up... bad thought!]
then came 2nd of Dec... the night where myself and Jan spent the night at zhengzhong's place before BIG day... ate lots of banana... drank lots of milk before sleeping... must be filled with carbo so that i will have energy to run... it feels kinda weird to sleep at 1230am... [for i have been sleeping at 4am lately] thank God that both Jan ZZ dun snore... haha... if not... how to sleep! haha...
at 4am... Jan's phone alarm rang... i opened my eyes... but i did not move a muscle... then i heard Jan turning off the alarm... silence... was expecting Jan to wake us up... silence... nothing happens... only the soft rumbling of vehicles in the distance.... i close my eyes.... expecting Jan to wake us a while later... maybe he just wan to snooze a little more...
420am... i woke up... the 2 are still sleeping... one of the biggest temptation revealed itself.... i want to give up... i just want to sleep in and then give the excuse that we over slept... it is not because of sleep... it is due to the fact that i know what is to come if i run the marathon... i can imagine all the pain... all the agony... the sweat.... the blistering sun.... the sheer torture.... i dun need to do that, do i? i am not obliged to run, am i? no one can force me to do so, can they?
i closed my eyes once again... suddenly... the story of Jesus praying in Gethesame came into my mind... Jesus being God... knows what is to come if He allows Himself to be captured.... i am sure He knows the physical pain... the insulting words from ppl... most impt of all... He knew that for a brief moment.... His Father will remove His Presence on Him... that perhaps is the greatest pain of all... but He remembered His purpose on earth... Jesus had volunteered Himself to save us... and i believe that had helped brought Jesus through... His sacrifice IS for the ones He loves...
i too remembered why i want to join the marathon... it is not the race that i am interested in... it is something that i want to do... i had lost the feeling of working hard for something... that persistence.. that determination... that spirit of wanting to complete something despite of hardship.... i had lost this feeling... i want to get it back... thus i prayed that through this physical breathrough... i too can have various breakthroughs in my life as well....
i am glad God reminded me of the story of Jesus's struggle as well... makes me feel at peace... that my God knows what i am going through and He had oredi set the example... :) anyway... if i dun wake jan and zz up... they will kill me as well! haha... most impt of all... i can never hold up my head if i were to give up...
oh oh... it was a spiritual breathrough because i prayed for 8km... haha.. at the 34km mark.. they actually ran out of DEEP HEAT! what is this man?!? no DEEP HEAT means that i had to endure the stinging pain in my right knee cap! how to complete marathon if every step i take is going to hurting like mad! but God somehow remove the pain.. and i was able to run and complete it... this dependence on God for comfort is in the physical sense.. but i know that spiritually and emotionally, God can provide the same as well!!!
thank God for the breakthrough... and i pray and commit my aching knee to the Lord... heal me and heal all those who suffered "marathonic" ailment. amen!
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
man's talk
here's some pic i took just now. had a sakura dinner with kinwee...
it was $26 per person... i used to think that it is $25... haha.. anyway..
there's some of the stuff we ate...
it was $26 per person... i used to think that it is $25... haha.. anyway..
there's some of the stuff we ate...
chili flower crab... the sauce is nice... the crab is crap...
prawns... more prawns!!! i wan more prawns....
ice creams... the sweet corn ice cream is nice! very nice... i must get more of it...
Kim Chu is saving money for his laptop loan... that's why he did not join us for the buffet dinner... but he is loyal enough to come to meet us after our makan spree... haha... initially we wanted to get some beer from cold storage... but when we are there... our wallet prompts us to stop it and get something cheaper instead... tata~ thank God for 2 bottle for 1.50 promotion.. in the end we bought 4 bottles of fruit juice and went hunting for a place for our man's talk....
in the end we settled for the steps at "tuck tuck" there... quite a nice place... it was there where we shared our ideas about stuff... commenting and expressing views.... thought we are buddies, there are actually moments where gunpowder is in the air... but we managed to keep it under control. sorry, kw... haha should have been more sensitive! thanks kc... for being the faciliator! haha.... i really hope i can add to my intel attribute so that i can understand fully how you think!
frens.. wat are frens...
frens are ppl who wants to know more about you...
ppl who wants to tolerate you...
ppl who wants to understand you...
i cant say i totally know, understand and can tolerate kc & kw... but i wan to tell them that i want to! i WANT TO!!!!christian walk's made easier with you guys around! thanks!!!
better stop here... getting more and more DUAN BEI SHAN... haha.....
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
some random thoughts
apologies to those who came to my blog and saw ZERO new entries... sorry... will try to write more often!!! hey.. encourage me with comments or tags k! thanks! anyway... here's just some random thoughts...
wanna thank God for keeping my ah gong healthy. went to his bday celebration last saturday. was a simple buffet and cake... but i like the gathering of extended family. i am glad that most of us managed to attend it... helps to keep the younger generation bonded.
wanna thank God for HT aka red bean and whoever that's not feeling well and yet still join us at ECP. ANGDAO was sick but he braved through the rain storm to meet us at the ECP hawker centre only to be trapped there. all of us are soaking wet and cold like siao lor but i guess that's shared moments! haha...
"do not put the Lord to the test"
what comes into your mind when you read this verse? dun test the Lord...
dun go jump down from building and then ask the Lord to send angels to catch you? dun disturb the gangsters and tell them to get lost for the Lord is with you?
actually i realised that it simply means... that we should not put ourselves in any situations that God has to come in and intervene to save our skins. it means that if we can avoid the situations ourselves, we should try to do it.
or in ellson's lingo
"wa lau. dun purposely do stupid things and then nag God to save you."
of course, we shouldnt go to the extreme and try to be self sufficient to the point that we do not need God. the fact is we do need God... but wat matters are the reasons and situations...
the asicence hair shampoo really works! everyone should try! haha... coupled with the conditioner and treatment! it rocks!!!!!
Age of Empire...
i cant say this game rocks.... but it is really nice.... i had this game like eons ago but never play it. was too absorbed into C&C, starcrafts, warcraft and stuff... actually, its the AOE picture that puts me off... before i even play, i oredi "hated" the game... haha... dun judge a book by its cover... dun judge a game by its picture! haha...
wanna thank God for keeping my ah gong healthy. went to his bday celebration last saturday. was a simple buffet and cake... but i like the gathering of extended family. i am glad that most of us managed to attend it... helps to keep the younger generation bonded.
wanna thank God for HT aka red bean and whoever that's not feeling well and yet still join us at ECP. ANGDAO was sick but he braved through the rain storm to meet us at the ECP hawker centre only to be trapped there. all of us are soaking wet and cold like siao lor but i guess that's shared moments! haha...
"do not put the Lord to the test"
what comes into your mind when you read this verse? dun test the Lord...
dun go jump down from building and then ask the Lord to send angels to catch you? dun disturb the gangsters and tell them to get lost for the Lord is with you?
actually i realised that it simply means... that we should not put ourselves in any situations that God has to come in and intervene to save our skins. it means that if we can avoid the situations ourselves, we should try to do it.
or in ellson's lingo
"wa lau. dun purposely do stupid things and then nag God to save you."
of course, we shouldnt go to the extreme and try to be self sufficient to the point that we do not need God. the fact is we do need God... but wat matters are the reasons and situations...
the asicence hair shampoo really works! everyone should try! haha... coupled with the conditioner and treatment! it rocks!!!!!
Age of Empire...
i cant say this game rocks.... but it is really nice.... i had this game like eons ago but never play it. was too absorbed into C&C, starcrafts, warcraft and stuff... actually, its the AOE picture that puts me off... before i even play, i oredi "hated" the game... haha... dun judge a book by its cover... dun judge a game by its picture! haha...
Sunday, November 05, 2006
heaven's cheering again!!!
on 04th November 2006
our ah juan mei mei accept* Jesus into her life...
[why accept*? there is a story to it... for more information, ask juan yourself... haha]
God not just save juan... but He taught me something as well... faith... let me share this story with you...
when i got the news that juan is coming for service, i wasnt happy... was stressed... was fearful... it was faithless-ness... i wasnt ready for another wasted opportunity... but during the PnW... it was different... all of the sudden, God reminded me of Chun... i rem that i kept praying for her during the PnW... during the service... [believed others prayed fervently for her also] and tata~ her heart was soften and she accepted Jesus...
Jesus is the same in the past, present and in the future... He is never changing and is everloving... if He can do the same in chun's heart, He can do the same in juan's heart!
and so.. i prayed and prayed... all the way till altar call... but when jasmine was asking the hope members to share the gospel to our non-believing friend... a sense of crippling fear strikes me... i recalled the many times she rejected the offer... i took a little peep at her... i saw her shaking her head when dai spoke to her... *faint* i wan to faint... the fear had taken shape... taken form... she really "said" no again... at that instant... a thought... a stirring in the heart came...
"ignore it... ignore it... just pray... do not be affected.. just pray"
instinctively, i covered my ear and pray... asking God to soften her heart... after the "sinner's prayer", i open my ears and i saw dai and juan hugging...
i was like... hug for wat.... never hug before meh... haha... hug because juan received Christ!!! before i can react... all the sisters are swarming over all... and i do mean SWARMING over her... juan cried... tears of joy came flowing down... wat a sight to behold... :)
i just patted her head and smile... i believe God had patted on mine too...
learnt an impt lesson... just pray and believe... do not let circumstance stop me from praying... no one... absolutely no one can stop us from loving God and no one can stop God from loving us...
love You lots, Abba... thanks for hearing not just my prayer... but many others who had prayed for juan... thanks...
our ah juan mei mei accept* Jesus into her life...
[why accept*? there is a story to it... for more information, ask juan yourself... haha]
God not just save juan... but He taught me something as well... faith... let me share this story with you...
when i got the news that juan is coming for service, i wasnt happy... was stressed... was fearful... it was faithless-ness... i wasnt ready for another wasted opportunity... but during the PnW... it was different... all of the sudden, God reminded me of Chun... i rem that i kept praying for her during the PnW... during the service... [believed others prayed fervently for her also] and tata~ her heart was soften and she accepted Jesus...
Jesus is the same in the past, present and in the future... He is never changing and is everloving... if He can do the same in chun's heart, He can do the same in juan's heart!
and so.. i prayed and prayed... all the way till altar call... but when jasmine was asking the hope members to share the gospel to our non-believing friend... a sense of crippling fear strikes me... i recalled the many times she rejected the offer... i took a little peep at her... i saw her shaking her head when dai spoke to her... *faint* i wan to faint... the fear had taken shape... taken form... she really "said" no again... at that instant... a thought... a stirring in the heart came...
"ignore it... ignore it... just pray... do not be affected.. just pray"
instinctively, i covered my ear and pray... asking God to soften her heart... after the "sinner's prayer", i open my ears and i saw dai and juan hugging...
i was like... hug for wat.... never hug before meh... haha... hug because juan received Christ!!! before i can react... all the sisters are swarming over all... and i do mean SWARMING over her... juan cried... tears of joy came flowing down... wat a sight to behold... :)
i just patted her head and smile... i believe God had patted on mine too...
learnt an impt lesson... just pray and believe... do not let circumstance stop me from praying... no one... absolutely no one can stop us from loving God and no one can stop God from loving us...
love You lots, Abba... thanks for hearing not just my prayer... but many others who had prayed for juan... thanks...
Thursday, November 02, 2006
PM came to HQ
yupz! it's PM alright... a praying mantis!
wah... this critter scare chun to "death". interesting little insect... made me wanna youtube for it... i realise a shocking news... praying mantis actually eat mice! here's some pic of it...
wah... this critter scare chun to "death". interesting little insect... made me wanna youtube for it... i realise a shocking news... praying mantis actually eat mice! here's some pic of it...
Friday, October 27, 2006
Thursday, October 26, 2006
GFG @ Botanical Garden
Praise the Lord! really! cause He had stop the rain so that we can have fun... come to think of it... i think God send rain to clear the air of the filthy smog so that we can breathe better! haha... the moment all brothers reach the place, the sky began to clear and dada~ the rain stop! Thank you sooo much, Lord!
[on our way to the swan lake... the brothers actually go gaga over the 2 swan and one loser duck! really! the duck is very loser! it is a swan wannabe!]
[Fall in... reliving the army days... 1 2 3 4 5 6 and no blank file!]
[the losing team of the "dog and bone" have to prepare sandwiches for the winning team... hmm... putting burning coal on their head]
[playing ball in the field... need more explanation?]
[hang on, edwin... just hang on!]
[flince-terpillar will turn into a butterfly one day!]
[macho brothers on the trees... wonder where are our Janes?]
[the thinking game... this game reconfirmed that i am good only in chiong chiong games... just chiong, run and endure... any game that dun need brain and i will rock big time... but this thinking game... sobz]
[nope! your eyes din played a trick on you... our jasmine was there during the second game onwards... it was great to hear her opinions and views regarding BRGs...]
[the machos of NUS...]
Saturday, October 21, 2006
bro... brother... brotherhood...
today KC and kinwee came to HQ for dinner...[always KC around never kinwee] a pleasant surprise... haha... after dinner, we went to the brick staircase behind HQ and begin our MAN'S TALK... sharing about our CGs... and matters of the heart... not sure how long we were sat there... but i really enjoyed such fellowship... such is wat i call brotherhood...
Friday, October 20, 2006
pig trotter part 2...
here are some of the pictures taken during the filming today... haha..
in case you are wondering why this tin is in the picture... this tin happens to be my co-star... mr tin has been with me through thick and thin... haha... and he is the "kopi-O ta bao"...
oh oh... i kenan worm again! this time at feng seng that side... found this "green wormie" in my ban mian... i think God knows that i need to extra protein...
in case you are wondering why this tin is in the picture... this tin happens to be my co-star... mr tin has been with me through thick and thin... haha... and he is the "kopi-O ta bao"...
oh oh... i kenan worm again! this time at feng seng that side... found this "green wormie" in my ban mian... i think God knows that i need to extra protein...
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
pig trotter...
Okie... can... i will meet you at 1pm at Yishun MRT... yupz... yes... i will bring another set of clothings... okie.. see you... bye
i argeed to be chun's lead actor in her video project! oh man! wat have i gotten myself into!! immediately, i can imgaine me doing all the NGs and stalling the progress of the whole film making. btw, chun is the newest sister to NUS family.
i am good... in fact.. gifted at making a fool of myself... talented at clowning around... "annointed" to make people laugh... but to be serious and act in front of the camera is different... the lens seem to have an invisible power that can make people make mistakes... haha... sorry, chun.. for the NGs...
just as i was filming yesterday... something hit me... *ping* *ouch*
comfort zone... comfort zone... the reason why i wanna hit myself in the head is i still hate to move out of my comfort zone. filming is new to me... esp acting with people with so much stage experience. [chun and her frens are involved in chinese drama. i had seen one of their performance... if not world class... it is durian class standard!] thank God that in the end i managed to do wat i was suppose to do...
i am going to film again on thursday... hope that i wouldnt create troubles for the editing crew... haha...
note:
1. shared moments
this few hours of filming... it brings me to chun's world. helps me to understand her better. do wat she likes to do. this experience is something we will definitely talked about and laughed about... shared moments are effective in fostering relationships... so brothers, we must have more of shared moments together... so that in reliving the memories, we can laugh at one another and remember that times that we spent... sounds mushy? k la. a bit...
2. christian walk is a duh.. a walk.. not treadmill... not jumping on the spot to reach God... a walk.. walk with God... there will be times where we had to step out of our comfort zones... it is not easy... but remember that whenever we step out with God holding our hands... we trust in Him more... we grow more...
i argeed to be chun's lead actor in her video project! oh man! wat have i gotten myself into!! immediately, i can imgaine me doing all the NGs and stalling the progress of the whole film making. btw, chun is the newest sister to NUS family.
i am good... in fact.. gifted at making a fool of myself... talented at clowning around... "annointed" to make people laugh... but to be serious and act in front of the camera is different... the lens seem to have an invisible power that can make people make mistakes... haha... sorry, chun.. for the NGs...
just as i was filming yesterday... something hit me... *ping* *ouch*
comfort zone... comfort zone... the reason why i wanna hit myself in the head is i still hate to move out of my comfort zone. filming is new to me... esp acting with people with so much stage experience. [chun and her frens are involved in chinese drama. i had seen one of their performance... if not world class... it is durian class standard!] thank God that in the end i managed to do wat i was suppose to do...
i am going to film again on thursday... hope that i wouldnt create troubles for the editing crew... haha...
note:
1. shared moments
this few hours of filming... it brings me to chun's world. helps me to understand her better. do wat she likes to do. this experience is something we will definitely talked about and laughed about... shared moments are effective in fostering relationships... so brothers, we must have more of shared moments together... so that in reliving the memories, we can laugh at one another and remember that times that we spent... sounds mushy? k la. a bit...
2. christian walk is a duh.. a walk.. not treadmill... not jumping on the spot to reach God... a walk.. walk with God... there will be times where we had to step out of our comfort zones... it is not easy... but remember that whenever we step out with God holding our hands... we trust in Him more... we grow more...
Monday, October 16, 2006
father and son...
a great story for:
it brought guilt...
it brought shame...
it brought realisation...
it brought inspiration...
it brought hope...
one day... i will tell a story. such as this...
Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in
marathons. Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a
wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming
and pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all inthe same day. Dick's also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken him on his back
mountain climbing and once hauled him across the U.S. on a bike. Makes taking your son bowling look a little lame, right?And what has Rick done for his father? Not much--except save his life.
This love story began in Winchester, Mass., 43 years ago, when
Rick was strangled by the umbilical cord during birth, leaving him
brain-damaged and unable to control his limbs.
"He'll be a vegetable the rest of his life." Dick says doctors told
him and his wife, Judy, when Rick was nine months old. "Put him in an
institution."
But the Hoyts weren't buying it. They noticed the way Rick's eyes
followed them around the room. When Rick was 11 they took him to the
engineering department at Tufts University and asked if there was
anything to help the boy communicate. "No way," Dick says he was
told. "There's nothing going on in his brain."
"Tell him a joke," Dick countered. They did. Rick laughed. Turns
out a lot was going on&n bsp;in his brain.
Rigged up with a computer that allowed him to control the cursor by
touching a switch with the side of his head, Rick was finally able
to communicate. First words? "Go Bruins!" And after a high school
classmate was paralyzed in an accident and the school organized a charity run
for him, Rick pecked out, "Dad, I want to do that."
Yeah, right. How was Dick, a self-described "porker" who never ran
more than a mile at a time, going to push his son five miles? Still, he
tried. "Then it was me who was handicapped," Dick says. "I was sore
for two weeks." That day changed Rick's life. "Dad," he typed, "when we were
running, it felt like I wasn't disabled anymore!"
And that sentence changed Dick's life. He became obsessed with
giving
Rick that feeling as often as he could. He got into such hard-belly
shape that he and Rick were ready to try the 1979 Boston Marathon.
"No way," Dick was told by a race official. The Hoyts weren't quite
a single runner, and they weren't quite a wheelchair competitor. For
;few years Dick and Rick just joined the massive field and ran anyway.
Then they found a way to get into the race officially - in 1983 they ran
another marathon so fast they made the qualifying time for Boston
the following year. Then somebody said, "Hey, Dick, why not a triathlon?"
How's a guy who never learned to swim and had n't ridden a bike
since he was six going to haul his 110-pound kid through a triathlon? Still,
Dick tried.
Now they've done 212 triathlons, including four grueling 15-hour
Ironmans in Hawaii. It must be a buzzkill to be a 25-year-old stud
getting passed by an old guy towing a grown man in a dinghy, don't you
think? Hey, Dick, why not see how you'd do on your own? "No way," he says.
Dick does it purely for "the awesome feeling" he gets seeing Rick
with a cantaloupe-sized smile as they run, swim and ride together. This year, at ages 65 and 43, Dick and Rick finished their 24th Boston Marathon, in 5,083rd place out of more than 20,000 starters. Their
besttime - Two hours, 40 minutes in 1992--only 35 minutes off the world
record, which, in case you don't keep track of these things,
happens to be held by a guy who was not pushing another man in a wheelchair at
the time.
"No question about it," Rick types. "My dad is the Father of the Century."
And Dick got something else out of all this too. Two years ago he
had a mild heart attack during a race. Doctors found that one of his
arteries was 95% clogged. "If you hadn't been in such great shape," one
doctor told him, "you probably would've died 15 years ago."
So, in a way, Dick and Rick saved each other's life.
Rick, who has his own apartment (he gets home care) and works in
Boston,and Dick, retired from the military and living in Holland, Mass.,
always
find ways to be together. They give speeches around the country and
compete in some backbreaking race every weekend, including this
Father's Day. That night, Rick will buy his dad dinner, but the thing he really
wants to give him is a gift he can never buy.
"The thing I'd most like," Rick types, "is that my dad sit in the
chair and I push him once."
Here's the video.... Copy this URL into your browser
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryCTIigaloQ
it brought guilt...
it brought shame...
it brought realisation...
it brought inspiration...
it brought hope...
one day... i will tell a story. such as this...
Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in
marathons. Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a
wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming
and pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all inthe same day. Dick's also pulled him cross-country skiing, taken him on his back
mountain climbing and once hauled him across the U.S. on a bike. Makes taking your son bowling look a little lame, right?And what has Rick done for his father? Not much--except save his life.
This love story began in Winchester, Mass., 43 years ago, when
Rick was strangled by the umbilical cord during birth, leaving him
brain-damaged and unable to control his limbs.
"He'll be a vegetable the rest of his life." Dick says doctors told
him and his wife, Judy, when Rick was nine months old. "Put him in an
institution."
But the Hoyts weren't buying it. They noticed the way Rick's eyes
followed them around the room. When Rick was 11 they took him to the
engineering department at Tufts University and asked if there was
anything to help the boy communicate. "No way," Dick says he was
told. "There's nothing going on in his brain."
"Tell him a joke," Dick countered. They did. Rick laughed. Turns
out a lot was going on&n bsp;in his brain.
Rigged up with a computer that allowed him to control the cursor by
touching a switch with the side of his head, Rick was finally able
to communicate. First words? "Go Bruins!" And after a high school
classmate was paralyzed in an accident and the school organized a charity run
for him, Rick pecked out, "Dad, I want to do that."
Yeah, right. How was Dick, a self-described "porker" who never ran
more than a mile at a time, going to push his son five miles? Still, he
tried. "Then it was me who was handicapped," Dick says. "I was sore
for two weeks." That day changed Rick's life. "Dad," he typed, "when we were
running, it felt like I wasn't disabled anymore!"
And that sentence changed Dick's life. He became obsessed with
giving
Rick that feeling as often as he could. He got into such hard-belly
shape that he and Rick were ready to try the 1979 Boston Marathon.
"No way," Dick was told by a race official. The Hoyts weren't quite
a single runner, and they weren't quite a wheelchair competitor. For
;few years Dick and Rick just joined the massive field and ran anyway.
Then they found a way to get into the race officially - in 1983 they ran
another marathon so fast they made the qualifying time for Boston
the following year. Then somebody said, "Hey, Dick, why not a triathlon?"
How's a guy who never learned to swim and had n't ridden a bike
since he was six going to haul his 110-pound kid through a triathlon? Still,
Dick tried.
Now they've done 212 triathlons, including four grueling 15-hour
Ironmans in Hawaii. It must be a buzzkill to be a 25-year-old stud
getting passed by an old guy towing a grown man in a dinghy, don't you
think? Hey, Dick, why not see how you'd do on your own? "No way," he says.
Dick does it purely for "the awesome feeling" he gets seeing Rick
with a cantaloupe-sized smile as they run, swim and ride together. This year, at ages 65 and 43, Dick and Rick finished their 24th Boston Marathon, in 5,083rd place out of more than 20,000 starters. Their
besttime - Two hours, 40 minutes in 1992--only 35 minutes off the world
record, which, in case you don't keep track of these things,
happens to be held by a guy who was not pushing another man in a wheelchair at
the time.
"No question about it," Rick types. "My dad is the Father of the Century."
And Dick got something else out of all this too. Two years ago he
had a mild heart attack during a race. Doctors found that one of his
arteries was 95% clogged. "If you hadn't been in such great shape," one
doctor told him, "you probably would've died 15 years ago."
So, in a way, Dick and Rick saved each other's life.
Rick, who has his own apartment (he gets home care) and works in
Boston,and Dick, retired from the military and living in Holland, Mass.,
always
find ways to be together. They give speeches around the country and
compete in some backbreaking race every weekend, including this
Father's Day. That night, Rick will buy his dad dinner, but the thing he really
wants to give him is a gift he can never buy.
"The thing I'd most like," Rick types, "is that my dad sit in the
chair and I push him once."
Here's the video.... Copy this URL into your browser
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryCTIigaloQ
Sunday, October 15, 2006
heaven's cheering!!!
2315hrs on 14th of october 2006...
a great cheer came from heaven...
a "boohoo boohoo" from chen xiang ann...
wanna give thanks to God
for bringing her to service
for touching her heart
for giving her courage
for saving her
Lord... we await to see more of You in her life.
transform this new sister's life and bless her greatly
amen.
in case you are still reading "WAN BAO"
she is none other than zhi chun aka cookie monster.
welcome to the family, sis. it is the greatest and best
decision you have ever made.
also wanna give thanks to zheng zhong and michelle.
learn a lot from them. thanks.
a great cheer came from heaven...
a "boohoo boohoo" from chen xiang ann...
wanna give thanks to God
for bringing her to service
for touching her heart
for giving her courage
for saving her
Lord... we await to see more of You in her life.
transform this new sister's life and bless her greatly
amen.
in case you are still reading "WAN BAO"
she is none other than zhi chun aka cookie monster.
welcome to the family, sis. it is the greatest and best
decision you have ever made.
also wanna give thanks to zheng zhong and michelle.
learn a lot from them. thanks.
start with yourself
friday i saw jun kee at the HQ... he gave me this look that says "man! wat are you doing here?" sigh... he is right... wat am i doing here! so old oredi.. still at HQ... anyway jokes aside.. i am now at the stage where many, the likes of alan, chek wei, hanhui, sijia and many others have been and crossed...
so... you might ask.. wat is this stage that i am at now? this stage is the point where i have only a few months left before moving on* [correct as of 12th october 2006] i am sure many have these in their minds...
1. wat are the areas that i can leave a print behind?
2. wat legacy do i wan to leave?
3. wat do i want people to remember me of?
4.or in army term: "last burst of fire!"
permanent contributions
the sermon titled "why do i work like a dog?" by Pastor Jeff struck something deeply in me.
why do people want to work like a dog... the only reason is satisfaction! satisfaction that comes are after completing something... closing a deal or something. but temporal success cannot satisfy us for we are beings with the concept of eternality placed. thus like the 1st sermon point, we want to make permanent contributions. to have a legacy left behind. not so much about people remembering who we are.. but rather people remembering what we had done and thus encouraging people to do the same in the future...
how then can i make permanent contributions?
survival --> success --> significant
we need to move pass "survival stage" and "success stage" before we can be "significant". when a person just joined a company, the first thing he needs to do is to build relationships in the company. mix well with the rest of the staffs and learning the ropes. the second thing is to start closing deals and show people "what he is made of". only then, can that person start to make an impact in ppl's lives. because he has shown himself to be credible....
in the spiritual aspect... it is the same... when a new believer first comes to know God, he must first be able to "survive" and fan his passion for God. [reasons for 24 hour CAPI, right]. next he should have some success under his belt. these success are the fruits of the spirit that became evident in his life as he grow in the Lord and they can be breakthroughs as well... like having a deeper trust and faith in the Lord. then he can influence ppl with wat he has learnt. even better is that he raise up as a leader and impacting even more ppl! extending his sphere of influence...
how then can i survive and be successful?
"you cant give what you dont have"
a simple truth... so simple that poeple will say "you been you dont know?" [ellson will say: "wa lau... so simple! you also dun noe meh!" the simplicity of the truth is often the reason why people are unable to live it out fully in their lives. this truth can be illustrated easily in quantitative sense like:
1. yeah.. i am free... let spend some time together...
2. no probs... i just got my salary... i can lend you some money...
however, when it comes to the intangibles... it is no longer that straight forward...
the intangibles.. things that cant be measured... cant be seen... such truth will escape under the mist of ignorance...
the reason people want to stay back to help out in student ministry or just to leave a biblical legacy behind is that they want to add value to the group. however, unless we have some valuables to impart, we cant add value to people at all... we simply cant give wat we dun haf...
i quote from John C. Maxwell's book...
to be a person that adds value to others, we need to
a. recognise our value
once, Gary Smalley ask his audience whether they want the 50 dollar note in his hands. all hands shoot up . then he crumpled the note and ask the audience. once again, all hands shoot up. after that, he dropped it to the floor and grind it with his shoe. picking the crumpled note up, he asked the question again. needlessly to say... all hands shoot up again. the value of the note hasnt change no matter wat gary did to it. like the note, we have values as well... we are valuable in God's eyes.. no matter how we or others look at others, the value remains...
b. accept your value
"acceptance" comes from the Latin ad capere that means " to take to oneself". this means, process of accepting others is the act of self-acceptance.
c. increase in your value
duh... no explaination needed right?
d. believe in your value
just like praying... we should believe and have faith in the prayer that we made before God. we should recognise, accept, increase and believe in our values...
i have been reading to add value to myself... so that i can add value to the group... wat about you?
so... you might ask.. wat is this stage that i am at now? this stage is the point where i have only a few months left before moving on* [correct as of 12th october 2006] i am sure many have these in their minds...
1. wat are the areas that i can leave a print behind?
2. wat legacy do i wan to leave?
3. wat do i want people to remember me of?
4.or in army term: "last burst of fire!"
permanent contributions
the sermon titled "why do i work like a dog?" by Pastor Jeff struck something deeply in me.
why do people want to work like a dog... the only reason is satisfaction! satisfaction that comes are after completing something... closing a deal or something. but temporal success cannot satisfy us for we are beings with the concept of eternality placed. thus like the 1st sermon point, we want to make permanent contributions. to have a legacy left behind. not so much about people remembering who we are.. but rather people remembering what we had done and thus encouraging people to do the same in the future...
how then can i make permanent contributions?
survival --> success --> significant
we need to move pass "survival stage" and "success stage" before we can be "significant". when a person just joined a company, the first thing he needs to do is to build relationships in the company. mix well with the rest of the staffs and learning the ropes. the second thing is to start closing deals and show people "what he is made of". only then, can that person start to make an impact in ppl's lives. because he has shown himself to be credible....
in the spiritual aspect... it is the same... when a new believer first comes to know God, he must first be able to "survive" and fan his passion for God. [reasons for 24 hour CAPI, right]. next he should have some success under his belt. these success are the fruits of the spirit that became evident in his life as he grow in the Lord and they can be breakthroughs as well... like having a deeper trust and faith in the Lord. then he can influence ppl with wat he has learnt. even better is that he raise up as a leader and impacting even more ppl! extending his sphere of influence...
how then can i survive and be successful?
"you cant give what you dont have"
a simple truth... so simple that poeple will say "you been you dont know?" [ellson will say: "wa lau... so simple! you also dun noe meh!" the simplicity of the truth is often the reason why people are unable to live it out fully in their lives. this truth can be illustrated easily in quantitative sense like:
1. yeah.. i am free... let spend some time together...
2. no probs... i just got my salary... i can lend you some money...
however, when it comes to the intangibles... it is no longer that straight forward...
the intangibles.. things that cant be measured... cant be seen... such truth will escape under the mist of ignorance...
the reason people want to stay back to help out in student ministry or just to leave a biblical legacy behind is that they want to add value to the group. however, unless we have some valuables to impart, we cant add value to people at all... we simply cant give wat we dun haf...
i quote from John C. Maxwell's book...
to be a person that adds value to others, we need to
a. recognise our value
once, Gary Smalley ask his audience whether they want the 50 dollar note in his hands. all hands shoot up . then he crumpled the note and ask the audience. once again, all hands shoot up. after that, he dropped it to the floor and grind it with his shoe. picking the crumpled note up, he asked the question again. needlessly to say... all hands shoot up again. the value of the note hasnt change no matter wat gary did to it. like the note, we have values as well... we are valuable in God's eyes.. no matter how we or others look at others, the value remains...
b. accept your value
"acceptance" comes from the Latin ad capere that means " to take to oneself". this means, process of accepting others is the act of self-acceptance.
c. increase in your value
duh... no explaination needed right?
d. believe in your value
just like praying... we should believe and have faith in the prayer that we made before God. we should recognise, accept, increase and believe in our values...
i have been reading to add value to myself... so that i can add value to the group... wat about you?
[3 oct 2006] rem wat you are good at...
while i was writing the previous blog... about the cg outing at botanical garden... something caught my eyes... a photo of ven holding her drawing... it was a pencil drawn picture of a fruit basket. hmm... suddenly i rem that i used to draw with pencils as well... [yes.. i draw with pencils... some use poster colour.. crayon... blah blah.. i like pencil!!] that thought brought me into "stand by room" state... i search high and low for pictures that i had drawn before... haha.... WANG TIAN BU FU YOU XIN REN!!! i found a tiny book that
contains some of my drawings... hmm.. i think it rekindle my passion for drawing again... while i start to draw again... share with you wat i had drawn oredi...rem wat you are good at... according to research... in US, nearly 85% of the people felt that they could work harder on the job. and more than half of them claimed that they could double their effectiveness if they wanted to... why you ask? it is because very few people are working in their areas of strength. who likes to work in the area of weakness.. duh! yupz... that's why we must always asking ourselves wat are our strength... wat are the things that we are good in.... and then to remind ourselves of it.. so that we can continuously improving ourselves in those areas!!
there are some of the strength my cg ppl possessesjiadai - energetic...
guan - willingness...
eric - detailed...
gx - gifted in writings...
ven - simple child-like faith...
ruisi - dancing...
kaili - "can do" spirit...
we all have so much in us... so much that we can offer to God... wat's yours...
NUS100... you are with me?
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