gave and take away

"give and take away... You gave and take away..."
my heart will choose to say....

i have to confess that it didn't felt good... the feeling is terrible... but i am glad God reminded me of 1 story in particular... Abraham and Isaac in Gen 22:1-12

the childless man, Abraham was given the great promise of being the patriarch of the chosen nation.
at his twilight years, God gave him a son... with a hint of doubt, Abraham must have doted his son a lot... and even that could be an understatement....
and then, God commended Abraham to sacrifice Isaac to Him... hearing this, Abraham's neuron must have went into over-drive...

"What?!? You gave me my son... Now you want him back? Why do you give him to me in the first place?"
"i thought You desire mercy, not sacrifice... why this?"
"i have rams... sheep... throngs of them... why my son?"

these may or not may be his thoughts... but by his action, Abraham had chosen to trust... to love the MAKER, rather than focusing on the MADE... even if it seems to be "MADNESS"... i seriously didn't think that Abraham meant it when he lied to his son... neither does he knows that God is just testing him nor understands the reason behind such a command.
He could only trust...

He gave and take away... He gave and take away...
I praise the Lord when the MAKER gave
I should praise the Lord even when the MADE was taken away
because my heart will chose to say... blessed is HIS NAME