why why why

Why do you keep asking whether I've bathed or eaten, as if I don't know how?

Why are you walking so slow, as if you've aged?

Why are you amazed at everything, as if you've never seen them before?

Why are you walking towards the lobby, as if "3 man in a box" means the toilet?

Why are you insisting we switch train at "promenade" as if we are at "dhoby ghaut"?

Why do you again, keep asking whether I've bathed or eaten, as if I don't know how?

Because I never talk much with you

Because I never notice

Because I never bring you out often

Because I never bring you out

Because I never bring you out at all

Because I never care...

All the lies... All the justifying... All the walls...

I simply didn't care enough

shingz dinner with dinos

Shingz @ melben 16/8/10

Jan & his "salted egg crab"; ellson & his "black pepper crab"

the legendary "salted egg crab"... super zuper duper luper nice lor!

after-makan-ed

the dino-makan gang (kangwei & jiayan MCed)

一起走到

While I was youtube-ing for Corrine May’s NDP song, I stumbled across this “一起走到” song for NDP 2002. And I simply love this song…

But it is not because the song is catchy

Neither is it due to the fact that YanZi sung it

Probably it is that hair rising feeling that I experience when I listened to this song; that uncanny resemblance to our walk with God…

在我们心中我知道, 这是永恒的长跑

"...He has also set eternity in the hearts of men..."

Ecclesiastes 3:11

“I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings. Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever.”

1 Corinthians 9:23-25

Eternity is not something that we can comprehend in our mind; it can only be understood in our hearts. The Christian walk is a marathon. It is tough and God’s frank about it.

好不容易, 来到这里, 明天还要追更多荣耀

“Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

Philippians 3:13-14

From student ministry to young graduate ministry, it is really a tough road and an even tougher transition. It is not just about long much mileage we had made but also bring more glory to God with each and everyday

把自己角色扮演好, 全力以赴每一秒

“The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ.”

1 Corinthians 12:12

“…making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.”

Ephesians 5:16

The heart pumps continuously, the lung breathes continuously, the stomach digests continuously and the list goes on; you get the picture.

和我的家人, 和我的朋友

"Who are my mother and my brothers?" he asked. Then he looked at those seated in a circle around him and said, "Here are my mother and my brothers! Whoever does God's will is my brother and sister and mother."

Mark 3:33-34

Like it or not, no man is an island… to complete the race, we need support from spiritual family and friends…

And yes, there is a difference between spiritual family and friends

向着目标, 手牵手, 一起走到

^“And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.”

Hebrews 10:24-25

inspiration #2

Lest the peripherals be polished,
a convex lens it is not.
In futility the ray passes by,
either reflect or refract.
Towering walls stood tall and great,
heaping shadowy jeers & sneers.
With faith, the edges be chamfered,
converging glass it becomes.
In victory we focus light,
stimulating emission.
Breaking stones, rocks and quartz,
'woohoo' echoes through it all...

and so it begins...

21.05.10 = day 01

22.05.10 = day 02

23.05.10 = day 03

24.05.10 = day 04

25.05.10 = day 05

26.05.10 = day 06

and so it begins...

day 01

inspiration #1

if there're seasons, there are reasons...
to sew hearts and to sow...
harden they may be; hidden He may seem...
in His presence, is a present...
to those who seek, all will see...

quotable quotes

some famous words that struck me recently

"pain is temporary. it may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. if i quit, however, it will last forever."
- lance armstrong -

"It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat."
~ Theodore Roosevelt~

You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.
~Captain Mike~
"The curious case of benjamin buttons"

and of course...

"Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. but this happens so that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead."
~Paul aka Saul~

CNY with sheep

it's really been a long time since i last blog about something... Apologies to friends who came visiting my blog, only to find cobweb and dust...

anyway, today is a really special day... believe it or not, it is actually the VERY first day i invited people over to my place. come to think about it, the last time which i had did something similar was when i was in primary school and i had invited my friends to come... however, i was a little skeptical about it and i din dare to tell my parents about it... i only said, they might come and good to get some tit-bits or something... when they din turn up, my mum inquired about it... i merely said they say they might come... wah! deep in my heart, i was so disappointed lor... i thought i had forgotten about it already... but the memories came back when i was cabbing to AMK HUB to fetch my kiddos. oh well... that was in the past... gone with the wind... heh heh

anyway, the time was spent greater than expected! i had always thought that my house is super boring lor... and most probably they will stay for 2 hours at most... haha... guess it was my insecurties at work again.

but i do like what Joe said when he first entered the house... "not very dirty what!" haha... of course la... i've been mopping and cleaning lor! haha... at least someone noticed my effort!

anyway, the time was spent:
1. the recurit (completed)
2. ip man (fast forwarded... YZ wanna just view the fighting scene)
3. 3 kingdom (80% of it)
4. muching on oishi pizzas... after eating these pizzas, you will never want to try pizza hut again...
5. Play station (ZZ commented that it feels like nitendo... haha... how true! considering now we have PS3 and Xbox already)

below are some of the pictures taken...






information on plasma burn in
http://www.plasmasaver.com/burnin.html
BTW... CTRs are susceptible to burn in as well... that is the whole reason why there was an invention called screen savers... because they literally save your screens.... and just for the record, LCD are immune to burn in... laptops have screen savers for aesthetic reasons only...

stay tuned

random thoughts again...

12th July 2008

highlights 01
赤壁 is really THE answer to LORD of the RINGS... though there are some discrepancies from history, the movie is nevertheless entertaining! 4.5 popcorns out of 5!!! but i have to agree that there's a 花瓶 in the motion picture, though... :(
*meng meng, stand up... meng meng, stand up... promise me you wouldn't make her into a battle horse...*

hightlights 02
was ah ma's birthday... actually i din noe if it is really her actual bday nor how old she is... but i guess it doesn't matter. the important thing that it WAS an extended family gathering... check out my ah kong! isn't he a sweet husband!?!?

13th July 2008
my very first family dinner for the last 3+ years...
my very very first time organizing a family dinner...
my very very very first time in treating my family to a dinner...
was sadz but true...
is still weak but strength will come..
seems impossible but hopeful...
it wouldn't be the last time... this i know... :)

looking forward to saturday... for i am going zhng my 赤兔马

a little gift from God

recently i have been listening to this great song by Chris Tomlin, "how great is our God" and at the very very last part... the congregation was singing another song... that goes like this:

"...then sings my soul, my Saviour God, to Thee
How great thou art, how great thou art
The sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee
how great thou art, how great thou art..."

somehow this song warms my heart in a strange manner... emotions are stirred... it helps me to remember what is means to say Great is our God with our soul! and not just through lips!i had to listen to the whole song, i am excited what new feelings it will bring me. though i did managed to find the lyrics and the chords, i couldn't make out how to play or sing the rest of the song... i asked some of my cg mates, church mates & decor team and try to get my hands on the mp3 but in vain... :(

However during the solemnization of Shengteng and Peiru, this song was sung!perhaps this song was their song because they confessed that without God, it would be impossible for them to come together, due to their various differences... to them God is that great! How great God is in bringing them together...

for me, at the moment when i heard the song... i just felt very loved by God... He had chose to withheld the mp3 from me so that i may hear it "live" for the first time... nothing beats singing along bros and sisters who are praising God with their souls as well!

how great thou art... how great thou art... how great God has been to me in the past, in the present and He will be in the future as well. although there are issues which i had still unable to understand, by extrapolation... then sing my soul, my Saviour God is Thee, He knows what He is doing... everything is in His control... here's my book... it's Yours to write...

**updates**

just an hour of posting this blog... my "daughter jesline" sent me THE song!!! [she calls me ah pa... so that makes her my daughter... hehe... God's kinda cute!

how great thou art...

Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee
How great thou art,   how great thou art
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee
How great thou art,   how great thou art 

gave and take away

"give and take away... You gave and take away..."
my heart will choose to say....

i have to confess that it didn't felt good... the feeling is terrible... but i am glad God reminded me of 1 story in particular... Abraham and Isaac in Gen 22:1-12

the childless man, Abraham was given the great promise of being the patriarch of the chosen nation.
at his twilight years, God gave him a son... with a hint of doubt, Abraham must have doted his son a lot... and even that could be an understatement....
and then, God commended Abraham to sacrifice Isaac to Him... hearing this, Abraham's neuron must have went into over-drive...

"What?!? You gave me my son... Now you want him back? Why do you give him to me in the first place?"
"i thought You desire mercy, not sacrifice... why this?"
"i have rams... sheep... throngs of them... why my son?"

these may or not may be his thoughts... but by his action, Abraham had chosen to trust... to love the MAKER, rather than focusing on the MADE... even if it seems to be "MADNESS"... i seriously didn't think that Abraham meant it when he lied to his son... neither does he knows that God is just testing him nor understands the reason behind such a command.
He could only trust...

He gave and take away... He gave and take away...
I praise the Lord when the MAKER gave
I should praise the Lord even when the MADE was taken away
because my heart will chose to say... blessed is HIS NAME

the glasses on your nose; the spirit in your heart

recently Pastor Jo mentioned about the spirit during Ministry Night ... He said that the spirit of a man determines how he looks at the world, the various happenings, the joyous occasions, the sorrowful events... it is like a pair of glasses, a red-tinted one will make everything look red, a blue-tinted one will make everything look blue... when God allows sufferings, it is not that He is powerless nor nonchalant, He is using sufferings to soften our hearts... a seed cannot grow in hard ground, the ground needs to be tilted to facilitate growth...

"do not look at what God had seemingly let you DOWN but focus how God had lifted you UP"

God can make things right... if only you let Him... if only i let Him... amen

inspiration #0

am i blessed?

when i was alone and without friends, God sent me GenACTS
when i needed You, God sent me FengQi, Ben & ZeWei
when i needed help in mech, God sent me GuoQiang
am i blessed? ...

when i was down and out, God sent me KangWei
when i was back in church, God sent me CareGroup
when i was growing, God sent me sheep
am i blessed? hmm...

when i was diverting, God sent me reminders
when i was facing death, God sent me LiXiong
when i was helpless in project, God sent me understanding classmates
am i blessed? i think i am...

when i was facing dengue, God brought family to visit
when i was doing FYP, God sent me support
when i need buddies, God comfort me via kinwee & kimchu
am i blessed? yeah...

when i need a vision, God sent His
when i need a job, God gave gericke
when i need love, God taught me
am i blessed? i am...

when i repent, God gave grace
when i sinned, God gave mercy
when i .... , God is there... here... at... in... my heart....
am i blessed? I sure am!

God is Grrrrrrrrrrrreat!

God is Great! Can someone please say amen? because the chairs and the tables cant say amen!!!God has been good to me... although there has been some bad times like challenges being thrown at me... stress increment... felt the lack of support.... bad stuffs... yet in the midst of all these, God has never let me down... at times i cant see Him, at times i cant feel him... not because He left me... but rather, i had "left" Him... After being an working adult for more than 4 months, i can finally identify how can one forget about God during weekdays and remember Him during weekends... as our friendly pastor jeff likes to put it, "去church一条龙，去work一条虫"

recently, something positive happened and it made me see the light of HOPE once again. i guess that's the how God encourage me when i felt the temptation of giving up. i mentioned in my previous entry about wanting to be a "salty sheep in the midst of wolves" and about daring to be different.... to be the minority.... God blessed me with an early confirmation and it rekindle my conviction. most impt of all, i got to receive the letter of confirmation from my CEO, Mr Markus Gericke. how cool can that be? haha... Praise the Lord...

below are some pictures taken during my company dinner and BBQ... enjoy

Mr Gericke, the man himself! together with my GM, Mr Lua on his left.... dinner at ah yat!

ellson and his abalone!!! nice!

that's my follow project engineer, edwin kiew!

sales engineer, andrew with edwin... see! i am not the only one with 断背problem... *joke*

the MAN himself giving a speech during company BBQ...

i am back!

time flies really really very fast... before i know it, i have been a working adult for close to 4 months.... that means i haven't been blogging for the same amount of time... the excuse is "my laptop crashed" haha... but deep in my heart i know the real reason... haha... i had actually gotten my laptop back for a week... i just haven't had enough kinetic energy to start moving.

since this is my first blog after so long, i wouldn't/couldn't write much stuff with depth... [though it may not be Twenty Thousand Leagues deep, got at least one metre bah] anyway here's some photoscheck out my notice board... got much more stuff than the previous one...

the famous Bat Kut Teh from Klang, KL

that's my company laptop... kena blue screen again... *sigh*

PS
many thanks to my friends who kept bugging me to blog. really felt appreciated and loved. esp to kc! kw din mention much though... haha... oh ya.. edwin got ask about it as well... haha.. thanks, guys!

my first day at gericke

my very first day working at Gericke... it reminds me of the time i first entered primary school, secondary school, JC, NS and even university... a place of strangers, a place that's unfamiliar but that means it is also a place of mulligan!
a place where you can have a "fresh" start. as we live our lives, there will be events or incidents that we wished that we can reverse the situations, shoulders that we wished that we hadn't rubbed, people we wished that we hadn't hurt... our Lord Jesus will and can forgive sins and us we will be spiritually healed but there will still be physical and emotional consequences to bear...

so in this new station of my life, i pray that i will not only have a good start but also a good finish... be salty bright sheep among wolves!

here's me at my workstation... that's my ancient lappie... Tecra Centrino 1.2

bachelor of engineering... i have that... *sigh*

sigh... today i kena threatened by uncle at Park Mall noodles house [can rem the name of shop so anyhow smoke one] myself, huan yan, yi zhong and ben were at this shop, having lunch. we were sitted outside. there was this strange looking man who walked passed us and into the shop. as he walked, he kicked the chairs so that they wil be under the tables. huan yan commented "violent" while i said “他是老板吗?" That uncle came back and pointed his fist at me and said something which i do not understand but can roughly deciphered as "dun be KPO!" i was so shocked... haha... why do i kena this? anyway... he went for coffee, tea or whatever. after he finished, he went back to me and shouted something and then finally the L.J. coupled with the action. haha... *sigh* maybe i just happened to have the ah beng face... after all, my degree is B.eng